I’ve always held a fairly dim view of the Hollywood film plot formula that ensures popcorn- and Coke-addled audiences go home with smiles on their faces. Happy endings are for the reality-challenged, I’ve always contended. But I’ve made exceptions for books and movies whose main characters were animals. They should always have happy endings in my opinion, even though – as the facts of this past Sunday prove – animals are not spared in the real world any more than people are. So what’s my beef with fate, or luck or whatever are the uncontrolled circumstances that dictate how and when we all, humans or horses, reach the inevitable ends of our lives? We are all subject to the same forces of nature, right?
There are two reasons the horse world is weeping over the death of Hickstead, a death so tragic it is almost impossible to comprehend. The first is that as animal lovers – and horse lovers to boot – we look at the incredible character that was Hickstead and it breaks our hearts to learn that such a magnificent life ended in the time it takes to blow out a match. No one who ever saw Hickstead jump could doubt that he was doing what he was meant to do, both physically and temperamentally. He always entered the ring looking like a cross between James Dean (but a rebel WITH a cause) and Diego Maradona. There aren’t many equine athletes to whom the term ‘aggressive’ would apply in a positive sense. But Hickstead always meant business and it showed in the way he attacked a course. In the stable and without any jumps to look at, he was a gentle, quiet and surprisingly small horse. He saved all that explosive power for when it really counted.
The pain we feel for Hickstead the horse is a selfish pain. It’s our loss in a way that it isn’t his. We can anthropomorphise a horse all we want (and I’m guilty of it already in this post) but the truth is that our beloved animals have little sense of the future beyond the next treat, no expectation that the sun will rise tomorrow. Hickstead was simply alive and doing what he did best until the very last moment of his life.
Our other, and perhaps greater, sense of loss is in the fact that Hickstead didn’t exist in isolation, but as a partner to Eric. Eric’s loss and the loss of a magical partnership that could melt the heart of the most jaded Olympic commentator is the other reason so many of us are walking around on the edge of tears if we let ourselves think too long on it. Eric’s and Hickstead’s story has the characteristics of a fairy tale. The world overflows with stories of girls and horses, but this one is about a boy and his horse. Eric finds this tough, opinionated little stallion and within two years is making his way toward the centre of the world stage. The victories begin to pile up, and every athlete’s idea of the ultimate achievement – Olympic gold – is gained. Eric becomes a hero for Canada and for show jumping around the globe, but his image is inseparable from that of the little stallion who fits his own slight build so perfectly. The perfection of their fit was never more obvious than when Philippe Le Jeune rode Hickstead in the individual final at WEG. He looked pony-like under Le Jeune’s considerable height.
In six years of watching Eric and Hickstead, I never once saw an awkward or inharmonious moment. Like a reflected image in a species-transcending mirror, Eric matched Hickstead’s focus, his determination. Watching them over the biggest courses – like the CN at Spruce, the Olympics or WEG – was as close to believing horses might fly as one could come. What a feeling Eric must have had every time Hickstead lifted him into the air. It wasn’t only their objective successes that made Eric and Hickstead so easy to admire; it was the magic that they had together. A fairy tale.
Fairy tales have happy endings. This isn’t the way the story of Hickstead was supposed to end. I’m going to be sad about this for a long time. I am sure I’m not alone. I only hope Eric also knows he is not alone, that his own grief is reflected in the shared sorrow of more people than he could ever count.
Hickstead (1996-2011)
(Cealy Tetley photo)

On the edge of tears indeed. That was beautifully written. Thank you.
Beautifully written. Thank you.
Really, beautiful tribute. Thank you so much for sharing this. It really puts into words what I, and I’m sure, so many fans are feeling right now.
You speak for us all. Thank you.
You spoke for us all. Thank you.
Thank you for putting into words the anguish that has been haunting my soul since Sunday.
Thank you for your tribute. I truly hope that Eric knows that there are many who are saddened by this loss.
Karen, this is by far the greatest tribute to both Eric and Hickstead that has been written so far. Thank you for your eloquent writing (always) and for publicly putting into words what so many of us are feeling.
Your last sentence says it all, and if you ever get a chance to express that to him in person, we would all be grateful.
Very well said! Expresses how I( we) are all feeling over Hickstead and are grief stricken alongside Eric.
Quite a eulogy. Thank you Karen.
What a beautiful article. Hickstead will be forever in our hearts and prayers to Eric
Thank you for a beautifully written article. You have said so poignantly what so many of us are feeling.
I think you said it all….
beautifully written
what a beautifully, well-written tribute. Thank you so very much for this.
One word. Beautiful.
Thanks Karen,
You wrote a beautiful tribute in expressing the emotions that we all have had difficulty putting words around.
tears put into words exactly!! Thank you!
Thank you Karen. This was exceptional and managed to express my thoughts that I was not able to put into words.
Beautifully written. Such a sad ending to an amazing pair!
Beautiful written. But we all talk about how sad we are over the lose of Hickstead and how Erin is feeling, which I am sure we will never know. But we have forgotten to think about Hickstead’s grooms who were with him all the time. My heart goes out to them, Eric, the owners. He will never be forgotten.
HICKSTEAD may you rest in peace.
Of all the articles I have read, this is the one I will print and save. It is Beautifully written, coming from the heart of a true horseperson. Bottom line is we lost a superstar, but my heart breaks for Eric. Thank you for sharing.
This is a major loss in so many ways! Thank you for honoring Hickstead in such a wonderful way! Eric our thoughs are with you!
Not only that, but he was a little horse that could! He showed everyone that you dont have to be big to be successful in the show jumping world and that heart counts for so much more than size.
Beautifully and eloquently written. As you say its those left behind that are suffering the loss of such a magnificent horse.
Thanks for sharing your insights. It’s somewhat comforting to think that Hickstead knew he was special even if only through Eric and those who shared in the excitment of his victories.
I was shocked, in tears and feeling so sorry for both Hickstead and Eric. The only thing that made me feel better was knowing he was doing what he loved.
Thank you for expressing what many of us feel; and saying it so beautifully.
Wonderfully touching article. Thank you for your besutiful words about the magnificent animal that Eric and all his fans lost on Sunday. RIP Hickstead.
A wonderful tribute. The story of Hickstead and Eric Lamaze may not have had a happy ending, but it is now the thing of legend.
soon as I heard, I came to read what you blogged. Now I’m crying! Such a sad sad ending is right….hang in there Eric!!
Thank you for that. It helps my heavy heart some to remember what made Hickstead and Eric so special, and you wrote it beautifully.
I don’t know when I have been so affected by the death of a horse; I guess the loss was just so sudden and shocking, surely not Hickstead! There are some things in life though that are possible, but seem improbable, but this was one of the ones that turned into reality. Rest in peace, dear Sticks.
Eric and Hickstead shared a bond that will last long after his death
Thank you for capturing the essence of Eric’s and Hickstead’s partnership…truly magical. For all of us who have shared that special bond with a well-loved horse, we grieve with Eric and hope that all the courage he has displayed over the years will help him to carry on.
Beautifully written words that we all feel.
So very well written, thank you for putting into words what I have felt the last 4 days. I find it ironic that the little stallion with the big heart that gave it his all, broke his heart and left us all with broken hearts as well. RIP Hickstead forever loved.
Thank you for expressing how I, and probably most of us feel about the passing of Hickstead. With gratitude.
This was really beautiful and answers the question of why I’ve been crying half of my days away since the news. It’s been a long time since I’ve been this heartbroken. Goodness – it’s just so darn sad. Dear God – take the very best care of that great champion Hickstead and stay very close to Eric. He’ll be needing you. And, thank you for the gift you gave us in both of them.
Lovely post. Just had to tell you that great minds think alike… I wrote a similar post by the same title on my blog this week: http://tuckerthewunderkind.blogspot.com/2011/11/wrong-ending.html
What a Magnificent Fairy Tale that has ended too soon! Many – Many Hearts go out to Eric and just as many tears are being shed all around the world for both Eric and Hickstead. It’s a tragic Goodbye to a Great Horse. May Hickstead’s Pastures Be as Magnificent in Heaven as HE was to the Equine World.
This may not be a comfort to some – but having watched the video of Hickstead in his last moments – while horrific – showed HIS fight to the very end and it was over quickly. There was no time for long-term pain or suffering which sadly – many horses must experience before saying their final goodbye. It will never change the fact that he is gone, nor will it ease the pain in all of our hearts – but we should take comfort in knowing he did not suffer.
To a Horse loved by the World over – RIP HICKSTEAD…..
Wonderful tribute– brought me to tears again
Beautifully written… my only hope is there is a ‘rainbow bridge” and Hickstead is waiting for Eric on the other side along with all the other wonderful horses that have left their mark on our hearts.
Eloquent tribute – you captured the essence of not only a magnificent horse but a magnificent bond between the two of them. Our hearts are with you, Eric, in this tragic loss.
Thanks Karen for sharing your thoughts and what many of us are thinking. Our feelings are with Eric at this time and what it means to lose such a partner, may he never forgotten. RIP Hickstead.
You have said it all…encapsulated our feelings. You would think that ‘our horse’ died but I do feel like he belonged to all of us. Eric we mourn with you and we hate the way this story ended. We shared in your joys and accomplishments and now we share in your sorrow. Maybe that is what Hickstead wanted leaving in such a public forum. You are right Eric, he was looking after you in many ways.
Yes, beautifully written. Thank you.
Beautifully written,and I have read many many tibutes this past week, thank you.
Karen, I so agree, a great tribute…great writing! I don’t know though, about the happy ending being in question. None of us are ever ready to say good-bye….the end is rarely welcomed. But Hickstead pursued his passion right up to the last moments of his life, no prolonged suffering, colic/founder….according to the number one person in his life, Eric, Hickstead looked out for him with his last breath, dropping so that he was unhurt….whichever way I look at it..through my tears and grieving….it sounds like a fitting, honourable end for a legendary personality we have all come to admire. Maybe the exit that a loveable rebel like Hickstead would have chosen as his “happy ending.”
A wonderful tribute – beautifully written and truthfully describing the feelings so many of us have. Thank you
Perfectly stated.
beautifully written. Watching Eric and Hickstead together was magical. They were second to none. I will miss watching thier magic. My heart goes out to all those who were attached to such a special horse. RIP Hickstead.
Karen
I do not know Hickstead nor Eric but your, compelling tribute, so beautifully written pulls at my heartstrings. What a lovely way you have galvanized the equestrian community and us outsiders in shared grief over the loss of this beloved animal and athlete. A great piece of writing.
What an incredible article. So well written and certainly touches the heart. Thank you.